Don't sweat small stuff my buddy !

"I´m disgusted with my life and myself,
but I´m not unhappy about that" - Hank Moody


To write about your visible, physical experiences is not
that difficult. All you have to do is go thru them, like

different notepad files and copy from your brain's memory

and paste it to the real notepad, on your laptop. I eventry

to sometimes list them, bullet point them, to be precise,

to capture the 'catch phrases', in case i forget themas I go down.
So its just the matter of filling inthe space as you go, cut

and brush here and there,and polish a little bit, there you go,

your next blog is ready. I often visit it myself and them come

back to edit mode to redo them. Just do an still

frame visualization,and jolt them down with words.

Fun. Easy, I can write for hours like that.

But try writing about stuffs that really occupy your mind,

things that are causing hurricanes inside you, something that

has been bothering you for whole week and keeping you awake

at nights, causing you unable to sleep at all, any time, any place,

except on trains! Or try writing about things that are deemed

outright personal, your issues with your spouse, friends and

loved ones. Your frustrations about your career, work,study,

salary, health, your regrets - big or small, mistakes that you

made,things that should not have been done and could have

been easily avoided (and you made the same mistake fortenth

time, even after reminding yourself aboutimportance of

learning from your mistakes)

Easiness stops. Now you are not sure about yourself,

probably negativity will swallow you whole,before you

can make any clear cut thinking pattern about the issue.

You are so overcome by emotions of all kinds,you evaluate

situation at 200 miles an hour, like a supercar race, like ten thunder

storms at once, try to rescue yourself from slipping away, to the

dark holes of negativity, telling yourself for the hundredth time

that you are losing the whole point, that it does noteven matter!

Its nothing, its ridiculous. You remind yourself again and again

and again, you should not be thinking like that.That your life is

fine, finally there has come some moment of peace in your life

without any problem, and you should enjoy this moment as much

as you can. But even when all seems well and calm, something

hurts youfrom inside, could be a very trivial thing, could be a

stingy doubt, or a big stuff like a breach of trust so magnanimous

it has left you speechless.

But yet, can you stop it? The waves never stop.

May be yes, for a moment,then you forget for a while, but the

satan always lurks behind, it actually never leaves you, it only

gets diminished in power for a while, then when you are on your

own again, when you sit down and want to concentrate,it comes

back, with vengeance. Demons, we all live withthat.But the best

and most effective approach in my experience is- basic. Okay,

you are so miffed up by that friend of yours, or that colleague,

you felt so humiliated and hurt, that you want to tear his head off.

Youtrusted someone with your whole innocence, and you got

kicked at the back in return, you feel you have justreceived a

low blow in a practice match that you werehelping out your friend

for the title fight. YOu comeback stunned, petrified, and wondering

why you keep on meeting this kind of low life creatures wherever

you go.What do you do? you go back to your rage, an internal one,

a furnace, where you are burning yourself. Stop it.Let go, its not

worthwhile. If it does not do any goodto you, you are better off without it.

How do you put down those things? Write where? How to you tell

your friend that its not the right way to go, like driving down the

highway with your mind lost somewhere else. You need

concentration, not a lost driver.

Okay imagine your wishes for a while,alternatively,

what do you want to do, wait for your revenge?

Swallow your anger for a while..and wait for a next turn?

and make sure you do not screw up that time? But have you

thought its really worth it? Isn't the other guy just another

sick creature? What good would it do other than satisfy your

hurt ego? To what level of negativity can you allow yourself

to go down to, and what is becoming of you,a devil? You

wanna be that for sure? Come on, you have better things to do!

Your life is beautiful and you know it. Change yourself a bit and

be cautious from now on so that you are not caught off guard,

but do not do down the path of evil and self destruction.
Do not lose the view of whole fun of life.